Hurricanes Devils and Drugs

I finally understood why Hurricanes were named after people,
Never ever thought this love would be so regal.

With Heaven cursing from one end of the sky,
Thankful for Devil to sleep by my side.

And yet it never felt like it was ever complete,
A cocktail of Pain, Love, Guilt served with side dish of Greed.

Sadly even alcohol couldn't turn blind to the lies, 
The truth only hurts the souls that breakdown at night.

Given a chance to choose between you and drugs,
I wouldn't hesitate to trip on acid fucks.

Silently wishing you never came back,
My awful heart rather fall in love with crack. 

Drowning myself in this endless sea of pain,
Loving you was so hard I went fucking insane.

While you scolded me for not loving myself,
The irony of an addict who gambles love like wealth

I hated myself for loving a monster who killed me everyday.
Mentally leaving, Physically stayed. 

For the longest time, I wasn't able to love nor feel.
Without you in my life, my happiness were real. 

I fell in love with the Devil himself who fabricated affection in my head,

I thought I finally had what I wanted- no baby this is hell instead.

I told myself to swear my love against the cold brutal arms,
But all I ever got on hand was a love concealed in harm. 

Pieces of me were left scattered on the ground,
Bitterly wasting my life on this merry go round. 

Riding on the carousel like the Grand high alive,

Thorns covered blades on horses - this bitch wouldn't survive. 

For this dubious ache of loving you,

I ripped pieces of me to heal your wounds. 

Loving you was like picking up flowers for my grave.

This love will be the death of me, this heart will rot in dismay. 

wildest wolf