Alove

Lying down beside him it feels like the heaven has just fallen beside me. We talked and enjoyed each other's presence and soon slumber hit him but not me, leaving me out alone and neglected...

Its funny how we chase for the happiness we can't have , how we think that by having another loving partner we will be complete , but we don't. Despite his presence beside me , I still was crying to bed . Despite his love towards me , I still was unable to feel secure or for the matter , stable. Everyday I feel like I'm fighting a war with myself , and even though He was there on the battle with me , it did not felt anywhere less painful . 

Let me make this clear I am nowhere saying he is useless or worthless or anything of that sort . I'm just saying that despite love was presence , it did not chase my Demons away . Tired really I'm so tired , why is it so hard for me to live ? To not have so many nightmares constantly crashing in my head the whole time , and to just lead a normal happy life ? 

I don't have an answer.

Living with monsters in my mind , the dawning sky brings upon the night.

I continue to search for something I call life , to walk down the journey I'm suppose to find.

Crying to the world for the harsh odds of mine ,tracing my steps back to fit the perfect line.

Change my soul to be unfate , trade my tears for another mistake .

I've dragged my foot on earth to live another day , and felt like hell was here instead . 

With a man who loves me for good , he'll take me wherever I should . 

And be it how this love story might end , I'm just glad that Ive found love again.