Fuck you, July

July has been a shitty month for me. Crazy things happened and life was getting tougher each day. I tried to suck it in , and maintained a positive energy . But I can't lie, I'm falling apart soon.

I just want to sleep the pain off, but I can't. I'm so close to getting my goal and I'm not ready to give up. I'm a fighter, I have to be strong. Why can't people just take their time and think once for me? I've been understanding towards their situation so why can't I have the support in return? 

It's unfair, 

For me to only understand.

How tough life is, 

So I simply pretend.

I treat others well,

But lesser for myself.

At the very end,

People don't dwell.

Stop being harsh on me,

Am I not human to you?

To crash me at my worst,

And me without you.

I want to be happy,

I pray everyday.

For god's mercy,

On a sinner's day.

Days gets worse,

Harsh words rise,

I keep silent,

Words dont cry.

When I'm done,

Maybe you'll regret.

How you treated me,

With disrespect.

I honor humans,

For mankind salve.

But I forget ,

They won't remember my name.

Just a little girl,

In this big big world.

Trying to find,

A space for her tears.

Wildest wolf