It's not all that great.

2016 has just started,
Yet I feel like my world is crumbling.

Waking up to bad news everyday,
As if nightmares were reality instead.

I see my goals fading away,
and my dreams falling apart.

Choices were not given to my hands,
But rather force fed into my mouth.

Take this hardship and swallow,
Soon there'll be more to come.

I want to focus on the things that makes me happy,
Sadly Time has stripped and run.

Wishing things to be smooth and well,
Like idiots finding brains.

Running bare with no shame,
This is my 3 months game.

Quietly awaiting another hurricane,
Like damages were not yet done.

Pull through life with strange affairs,
The pain have begun.

What can I say to these questioning people?
Like my life is a mystery.

With long lost belongingness as appetiser,
And premium tears as winery.

All I could ever say is..
It's not all that great.

Wildest Wolf

T H E F O O L

The fool, who still chased for you.
Who thought that absence were power,
Who fucking loved you.

The fool, who still stayed.
Who cared when no one did,
Who prayed for your safe.

The fool, who still thought we were friends.
Who provided you directions,
Who fucking held your hands.


The fool, who thought her feelings mattered.
Who explained the pain that was prolonged in her heart,
Who was brushed off simply like dust from our past.

Yeah, when I was hurled online.
It was my fault for following.

When I hurled her online.
It was my fault for being childish.

Little did you realised that all this time, the fool was me who was never once sheltered for being foolish.

Wildest Wolf

Okay.

I swear to myself, I'll be fine.

Days been slowing down lately,

I await for my dear Moon calling.

Behind the clouds or the heavy rain pours,

With a slow gentle love song drowning my sore.

Rolled a couple blunts and make it lit,

Crush a couple tears and make me bleed.

This pain that i feel everyday,

I'll make you taste in every agonising way.

A dying body,

A faded heart.

You killed me in one day,

My soul is now apart.

Truth is- I never wanted you to go.

Or ever wanted you to leave.

But today I'm glad I did,

Because your love always made me bleed.

The Irony of life always sets me apart.

To claim that you love me but stabbed right in my heart.

Ugly truths with a pretty face,

Was cheated by Faith while I was in your Embrace.

This mixture of anger and hurt,

I can't fucking comprehend.

But its alright, you won't bother,

With another on your bed.

Bed partners are easily replaced,

But real partners don't.

Guess I saw where I stand,

Just another in your woe.

I'm just another girl, 

Who showed you her flaws.

Who believed in fairytales,

And love behind closed doors.

I'm not okay,

In fact I never was.

But don't worry thats alright,

I'm not okay but I'll be fine.

Wildest Wolf