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101 shitty things in life
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This is my list of shitty things in life and I hope you'll find them
relatable...
waking up late
rushing for school
morning crankiness
the irritating kid in the bus
long bus rides without earpiece
long bus ride with dying phone
judgemental teachers
fucked up society
double standards
biasness
being accused
being misunderstood
not being good enough
a pile of homework left undone
DISAPPOINTMENTS
when you give in your best but the result is unfavourable
when you are in a room of better people
when you deem yourself to be worthless
when you know that you're easily replaceable
when you try your best to be as useful as possible
laughing at your insecurity
faking a smile
trying to fit in
low self love
neglected
forgotten
afraid
when youre broke and you are starving
when cash flow was a problem and you had to eliminate any
source of unnecessary cash such as a beverage
When you have no place to go
No one to turn to
No one cares
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Shittyness in life are inevitable and my list for it can go
on forver. However you need to learn to pick yourself up from it regardless
of how much you want to give up.
Last night my boyfriend, Xavier broke up with me at 12am
sharp. This mark the end of our 6 month relationship which is also my longest
relationship.
Despite the shittyness drowning inside me, I still pick
myself up and carry on with my project works and studies. Why ?
Because I learned it the hard way, because I know if I just
give myself up now no one will bother to pick me up. Remember my previous
relationship? Yeah, I screwd myself. I
gave up and it affected me greatly especially as I was taking my O levels.
Because I gave up, my result was shit and I had to use mother fucking taekwando which I don’t like and force myself
to endure through the trainings because I want to get in Temasek Poly. Yeah
true story ain’t making shit up.
So don’t give up and eventually things will turn for the
good. And regarding my break up, as bad as it sound I know I never regretted my
relationship with him.
He taught me a lot and I never felt happier with him. Very
unfortunately the stars don’t give me sign and the moon aint showing tonight.
Love is a word I never learnt and broken pieces is what I need. Shame on the
fate and guilt in the tongues, to turn our head back and trace our palm. To not
blame ourself but for Cupid’s mistake, and go back in time to find our own
fate.
101 Shittyness in life does not ends here, to go further with endurance and remember. Never give up is three simple words, but it can change you
even at your worst.
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| ending this post we a collage we took at his birthday 131114 this are the days we won't forget this are the day we won't regret |
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