tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23565132211586097222024-03-05T19:01:49.213-08:00野生のオオカミAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03736029105770168415noreply@blogger.comBlogger124125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-54459896027911149662017-02-20T12:04:00.005-08:002017-02-20T12:17:16.014-08:00The second best of everything.Have you seen Alice lately?<br />
I think she might have gone mad.<br />
She baked her heart for valentine,<br />
And talks to bunnies instead.<br />
<br />
She threw herself into the groovy hole,<br />
And made a silent deal with the Reaper.<br />
Oh dear Oh dear my sweetest child,<br />
It's too late now to stop her.<br />
<br />
A bittersweet twinkle for the lady,<br />
Is a thousand years of redemption.<br />
Yet she knew it all too well for her happiness,<br />
To hold the hands of a gregarious.<br />
<br />
<i>Now Now Darlings,</i><br />
Don't shed a tear for this bitch.<br />
A rotten heart for a Brooklyn boy,<br />
<i>Was just a Succubus's wish</i>.<br />
<br />
Haven't you heard about her lately?<br />
She stripped for a couple coins.<br />
Now Hatter couldn't love her back anymore,<br />
The biggest blame was <i>Choice</i>.<br />
<br />
<i>Oh</i>, how the tables have turned away.<br />
Didn't life play itself on you?<br />
Drink the bottles and grow high in love,<br />
Eat the drugs that felt so undeserved.<br />
<br />
The cruel intentions and a world full of lying souls.<br />
"Which way I ought to go from here?"<br />
It doesn't matter which path you took,<br />
Somewhere, Anywhere <span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">—</span> <i>not here</i>.<br />
<br />
Alice my dear,<br />
You don't have to fall into madness.<br />
To sin for all the crimes in the world,<br />
Just because you couldn't be Mad's favorite.<br />
<br />
The Queen smoked a pot full of Blame,<br />
Her Empress's cried for your shame.<br />
Had she held your hands tighter Alice,<br />
Would none of this foolish dream ever became?<br />
<br />
It's perhaps time,<br />
For her to leave this cunning game.<br />
Shedding her last bit of despair,<br />
A skinny love that was never proclaimed.<br />
<br />
This lingering feeling in her head,<br />
Was a dreadful ghost in her heart.<br />
There's no soul to love you back,<br />
Farewell now Wonderland,<br />
<i>She has finally given up.</i><br />
<i><br /></i> Waking up from the Hallucinations,<br />
Like everything was just a Psychedelic Sedation.<br />
He took part of her soul away,<br />
But removed half the pain as well.<br />
Now everything seems to work hand in hand,<br />
Why the fuck did Alice ever Dwell?<br />
<br />
Hatter wasn't the epitome of perfect,<br />
Nor one who repents for his sins.<br />
But the worst feeling in the entire universe,<br />
<i>Is being the second best of everything.</i><br />
<br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">— </span>The second best of everything<br />
<br />
With Love,<br />
Wildest WolfAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03736029105770168415noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-36676638342318300882016-12-19T01:52:00.008-08:002016-12-19T08:13:18.344-08:00Hurricanes Devils and DrugsI finally understood why Hurricanes were named after people,<br>
Never ever thought this love would be so regal.<br>
<br>
With Heaven cursing from one end of the sky,<br>
Thankful for Devil to sleep by my side.<br>
<br>
And yet it never felt like it was ever complete,<br>A cocktail of Pain, Love, Guilt served with side dish of Greed.<br>
<br>
Sadly even alcohol couldn't turn blind to the lies, <br>
The truth only hurts the souls that breakdown at night.<br>
<br>
Given a chance to choose between you and drugs,<br>
I wouldn't hesitate to trip on acid fucks.<br>
<br>Silently wishing you never came back,<br>My awful heart rather fall in love with crack. <br>
<br>
Drowning myself in this endless sea of pain,<br>
Loving you was so hard I went fucking insane.<br>
<br>
While you scolded me for not loving myself,<br>The irony of an addict who gambles love like wealth<br>
<br>
I hated myself for loving a monster who killed me everyday.<br>Mentally leaving, Physically stayed. <br>
<br>
For the longest time, I wasn't able to love nor feel.<br>
Without you in my life, my happiness were real. <br>
<br>
I fell in love with the Devil himself who fabricated affection in my head,<div>I thought I finally had what I wanted- no baby this is hell instead.<br>
<br>
I told myself to swear my love against the cold brutal arms,<br>
But all I ever got on hand was a love concealed in harm. <br>
<br>
Pieces of me were left scattered on the ground,<br>Bitterly wasting my life on this merry go round. </div><div><br></div><div>Riding on the carousel like the Grand high alive,</div><div><span style="font-size: 12pt;">Thorns covered</span><span style="font-size: 12pt; -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;"> blades on horses - this bitch wouldn't survive. </span></div><div><br>For this dubious ache of loving you,</div><div>I ripped pieces of me to heal your wounds. <br>
<br>Loving you was like picking up flowers for my grave.</div><div>This love will be the death of me, this heart will rot in dismay. </div><div><br>
wildest wolf</div><div><br>
<br></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03736029105770168415noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-56324420860799514752016-11-12T12:26:00.001-08:002016-11-12T12:36:10.082-08:00D the Decoy<br />
<blockquote class="tr_bq">
"Wish I may, wish I might. Find my one true love tonight. Do you think that it could be you?" - Lana Del Rey</blockquote>
<blockquote class="tr_bq">
<br /></blockquote>
<div style="text-align: center;">
Walking into hell never felt so familiar</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
Never knew the polaroids will ever turn blur</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
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He gave me a pot of mixed emotions</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
Pain, love, hurt or past abandon?</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
A hopeless romantic, a liar of her word</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
Never wanted to get high on the verge</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
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Just a faint substitute for paying back her soul</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
Nothing in the world could bring back the 'old</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
With empty hearts and a vacant body</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
Should the twins ever be the sin</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
May her coming days be filled with rain</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
Let the crack whore's feelings be in vain</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
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As it is written so it must be done</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
Before you commit please pack up and run</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
Washing my facade down with every pain</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
I became the third piece in your game</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
A recipe to cook a cake for the blame</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
With equal parts of pleasure and equal parts shame</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
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I emptied my heart with an eye full of rain</div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
The shit in my head is an awful hurricane<br />
<br />
Convincing myself that I'm purely insane<br />
Fuck these feelings tearing my sane<br />
<br />
Well acquainted with the villains inside me<br />
Baby don't run, you're Joker I'm Harley<br />
<br />
Caused you took a bite of the poison apple<br />
I'll promise you I'm fully at your disposal<br />
<br />
So playdate daddy don't be afraid<br />
This fabricated love will never be trade<br />
<br />
(Now read from the bottom to the top)<br />
<br />
wildest wolf<br />
<br />
<br /></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03736029105770168415noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-34541660152680675232016-10-16T11:21:00.000-07:002016-10-16T11:21:06.389-07:00The Sixth StationWaking up to a whole new world,<br />
Was never an easy task.<br />
Trying to recall every single memory,<br />
Hoping these feelings would last.<br />
<br />
In a train station within the ocean,<br />
Was where I start my path.<br />
Far beyond from this sedation,<br />
Is where I fell for Lust.<br />
<br />
A new name, a new game.<br />
I was rebirth.<br />
With full hate and nasty word,<br />
Is where I lost my First.<br />
<br />
I gave my all for everything I had,<br />
And swore to leave someday.<br />
But all that I had ever got on hand,<br />
Was to find myself some way.<br />
<br />
Each day fades into hell,<br />
Each pain deeper then the well.<br />
Finally I had reached some level,<br />
To take the shortcut and meet the devil.<br />
<br />
Opening the gates to an unending hall,<br />
With broken dreams hanged on every wall.<br />
Yet he turned out to be the perfect man,<br />
A Devil, A Sin, My Awful Resent.<br />
<br />
<br />
Wildest WolfUnknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-75345841206051951352016-10-09T12:54:00.001-07:002016-10-09T12:58:40.061-07:00HarlemToday, I just want to cry.<br />
Just let my heart out and deeply sigh.<br />
<br />
Under the covers, and fuzzy sheets.<br />
Warm tears running down my cheeks.<br />
<br />
Disappointed, Bitter, Down to Grey.<br />
My chest hurt so bad this is fucking <i>cliche.</i><br />
<i><br /></i>
When I wake up in the morning everything feels the same.<br />
I wished I was a killer to end the game.<br />
<br />
Lethargic and Tired, I've slowly become.<br />
Bone dry and dusted slowly into crumbs.<br />
<br />
I knew Sex were never loved, to begin with.<br />
I knew Love was never there, to start with.<br />
<br />
Silly O' girl the is not bad luck.<br />
Come over baby, a dick for you to suck.<br />
<br />
No marks on your body, or bites on your skin.<br />
Will fill my soul or help me win.<br />
<br />
Missing my chance, therefore I drink.<br />
Or drinking enough, to miss my sins?<br />
<br />
At the end of the day, I'm a hopeless missing piece.<br />
Back to the start, back to Genesis.<br />
<br />
Wildest WolfAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03736029105770168415noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-29362312825138172242016-10-09T12:29:00.001-07:002016-10-09T12:29:12.439-07:00A Gemini Confession<br />
Day after day,<br />
My life turning black.<br />
With roses in my arm,<br />
And pain on my back.<br />
<br />
A Gemini fate,<br />
Lies between the Twins.<br />
An angel in Heaven,<br />
A devil within.<br />
<br />
I acted like it didn't bother me,<br />
But inside I'm falling apart.<br />
Where my Mind is not stable,<br />
My body isn't Art.<br />
<br />
Two souls in a vessel,<br />
One head full of sins.<br />
Never should have held back,<br />
The fate of ugly twins.<br />
<br />
The irony of the Gemini,<br />
And I wanted one to be the moon.<br />
Who shall dominate the body,<br />
The Devil greets me in Maroon.<br />
<br />
The Angel said to be kind,<br />
And I did just that.<br />
The Evil laughed with thousands divine,<br />
I've been stabbed right in the back.<br />
<br />
A Harem, A Wilful.<br />
Fucking Gemini.<br />
Couldn't figure herself,<br />
Even in the night sky.<br />
<br />
So when the dust come,<br />
And the sun to set.<br />
Just always remember,<br />
To put the twins in bed.<br />
<br />
The confession of a Gemini,<br />
And a lady herself.<br />
Apologize for the mistakes,<br />
One had dealt.<br />
<br />
Wildest Wolf<br />
<br />
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03736029105770168415noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-62374804997587975272016-10-05T14:23:00.000-07:002016-10-05T14:40:17.674-07:00Salt and SugarDon't mistake Salt and Sugar,<br />
For spices with no friend.<br />
One is sweet like heaven,<br />
Another is death resent.<br />
<br />
Don't believe in fairytales,<br />
Or all the awful endings.<br />
They never taught you how to love,<br />
A crazy human being.<br />
<br />
Don't lie to yourself,<br />
That sex equates to love.<br />
Cause baby you know damn well,<br />
That you were just another girl.<br />
<br />
Between your legs,<br />
Was a motel for the lonely.<br />
He was just an empty soul,<br />
Looking for a vacant body.<br />
<br />
Don't get yourself into a mess,<br />
And believe in half-fuck words.<br />
At the end of the day,<br />
You're the only one getting hurt.<br />
<br />
Don't mistake Salt for Sugar,<br />
With Needs and Wants.<br />
I may seem brutal,<br />
But at the end of the day, to hate you, I simply - Can't.<br />
-Salt & Sugar<br />
<br />
Wildest WolfAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03736029105770168415noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-55179426021283699012016-06-12T16:02:00.001-07:002016-06-14T07:53:22.377-07:00GanjaGanja Ganja,<br />
Roll me another.<br />
Pull me a cigarette,<br />
Pour me a secret.<br />
<br />
Out a bag cut some slack,<br />
Pass a hint of death regret.<br />
Who cares, who wants this crazy bitch.<br />
No baby, no love just rolling sticks.<br />
<br />
<br />
Grab a lover for some light,<br />
Hold on darling- its gonna be tight.<br />
Withering away to the soulful night,<br />
Crashing my brain never felt so right.<br />
<br />
<br />
And there it went, the Hepburn here to kill.<br />
Running images on a spinning wheel.<br />
Fuck Stop, take me away.<br />
Let me die in my horrible dismay.<br />
<br />
<br />
Another breath and I'm gone,<br />
Another mistake forgone.<br />
Repeating nightmares in broken dream,<br />
The joint will heal my pain but sin.<br />
<br />
<br />
A sinner may once be a saint,<br />
But the sinner's blood will always remain.<br />
I wrote that last year in 2015,<br />
Up until now I'm still just dying.<br />
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
But we were born to die,</div>
<div>
Don't make me sad, Don't make me cry.</div>
<div>
Cause I'm riding on a road like an unsettling cum,</div>
<div>
At the end of the day its a Cannabis Numb. </div>
-Ganja<br />
<br />
Wildest WolfUnknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-77392458985965057542016-05-27T11:53:00.000-07:002016-05-27T11:53:23.550-07:00UndeservingI've always felt like this,<br />
A strange, dying feeling.<br />
It makes me wanna clench my heart,<br />
And end all fucking feeling.<br />
<br />
This stupid weight that I hold,<br />
And a burden over my head.<br />
Fills me with pain daily,<br />
I'll die to kill in bed.<br />
<br />
I never choose to walk this road,<br />
But all happiness must end.<br />
Merciless pain along the journey,<br />
Is my way of repent.<br />
<br />
It must be easy for you,<br />
For a loving rich daddy.<br />
Who knew I had to worked,<br />
To dig for dirty money.<br />
<br />
It must be easier to say,<br />
That I'm the biggest slut in the world.<br />
Too bad I wasn't blessed,<br />
I'm just an abandoned girl.<br />
<br />
There goes another day,<br />
Here comes a nasty word.<br />
So what if I'm working for hell,<br />
You never tried kneeling for golden dirt.<br />
<br />
Its true we turn a year older each birthday,<br />
Happily wishing to the silly cake.<br />
But its all a shitty joke to me,<br />
For the people I love- they wish I was dead.<br />
<br />
So don't tell me to stop being a whore,<br />
Because I can't picture myself any other way.<br />
This wasn't what I planned to live,<br />
Too bad daddy- you buried me away.<br />
<br />
I asked myself crazily,<br />
"What am I supposed to do?".<br />
I pray and ask god daily,<br />
"What did I did to you?".<br />
<br />
The thousand likes or complimenting words,<br />
Wouldn't compare to the parental love I yearn.<br />
Even endless friendship that is there for me,<br />
Stand no wall to my family.<br />
-Underserving<br />
<br />
WildestWolf<br />
<br />
<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-12211460461401749312016-05-01T15:50:00.002-07:002016-05-02T12:42:35.589-07:00LostA lost spirit in the shattering world<br>
With empty pennies and a crazy whirl<br>
Grabbing stars to reach the ethereal light<br>
Getting lost alone within the night<br>
<br>
I'm walking astray far from my dreams<br>
Just running towards where hard cash will be<br>
Wild trading my skin to get some gold<br>
Who cares if the slut becomes what others told<br>
<br>
It wouldn't matter if I was hurt<br>
Nor my feelings that they never heard<br>
Yet sadly the truth is I'm not fine<br>
But it is my fault so I shouldn't whine<br>
<br>
"You posted these photos, You worn these clothes"<br>
A whore, A hooker, A Fuck&Throw<br>
Yet theres nothing I could ever say in my appeal<br>
Because running for money is never real<br>
<br>
Theres no place for me to write an explanation<br>
Since no one will understand my sad sedation<br>
Yet even here on my fucking little hideaway<br>
There are pieces of me that slowly fades away<br>
<br>
Whats the point of composing all these little poem<br>
Why don't you write it straight down out for 'em<br>
Well heaven forbids humans to have grace<br>
He decides that I should be blame<br>
<br>
Even if I wrote my heart out<br>
Or cry till the bones go dry<br>Becuase I took the quick road to fame<br>
"I got it cheap- Hence I'm liable for pain"<br>
<br>
<br>
I'm done writing for the rest of the night<br>Just another step to my endless fight<br>
Yet sadly I seek no humanity in my efforts<br>
As I sit back and read the following replies in your words<br>
-Lost<br>
<br>
Wildest Wolf<br>
<br>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-47129976507708202222016-02-22T07:20:00.000-08:002016-02-22T07:20:31.445-08:00Filthy lifeHow does it feel?<br />
To be a slut and not a saint.<br />
Wearing clothes too fucking revealing,<br />
Poring alcohol in your brain.<br />
<br />
How did it felt?<br />
Crying deep in the night,<br />
Wrapping your arms around me.<br />
Lying that things are gonna be<br />
Alright.<br />
<br />
How did your body endured?<br />
This undeserving pain that you inflicted,<br />
Just to stay awake for the night.<br />
And not be shaken by liquor.<br />
<br />
How happy were you?<br />
With the filthy money rolling in,<br />
That came from dancing and drinking in the night.<br />
Not for the righteousness you had proclaimed.<br />
<br />
My little sister said I was her biggest role model- but I am not.<br />
<br />
My little sister has love and unconditional support- but I do not.<br />
<br />
<br />
Pile on more make up,<br />
Show off some skin.<br />
Tell them you're happy,<br />
Pray for your sins.<br />
-Filthy LifeUnknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-41058097628363602452016-01-02T12:17:00.000-08:002016-01-02T12:29:08.494-08:00It's not all that great.2016 has just started,<br />
Yet I feel like my world is crumbling.<br />
<br />
Waking up to bad news everyday,<br />
As if nightmares were reality instead.<br />
<br />
I see my goals fading away,<br />
and my dreams falling apart.<br />
<br />
Choices were not given to my hands,<br />
But rather force fed into my mouth.<br />
<br />
Take this hardship and swallow,<br />
Soon there'll be more to come.<br />
<br />
I want to focus on the things that makes me happy,<br />
Sadly Time has stripped and run.<br />
<br />
Wishing things to be smooth and well,<br />
Like idiots finding brains.<br />
<br />
Running bare with no shame,<br />
This is my 3 months game.<br />
<br />
Quietly awaiting another hurricane,<br />
Like damages were not yet done.<br />
<br />
Pull through life with strange affairs,<br />
The pain have begun.<br />
<br />
What can I say to these questioning people?<br />
Like my life is a mystery.<br />
<br />
With long lost belongingness as appetiser,<br />
And premium tears as winery.<br />
<br />
All I could ever say is..<br />
It's not all that great.<br />
<br />
Wildest WolfUnknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-53829895097214439842015-12-05T10:38:00.001-08:002016-01-02T12:28:07.201-08:00T H E F O O L The fool, who still chased for you.<br />
Who thought that absence were power,<br />
Who fucking loved you.<br />
<br />
The fool, who still stayed.<br />
Who cared when no one did,<br />
Who prayed for your safe.<br />
<br />
The fool, who still thought we were friends.<br />
Who provided you directions,<br />
Who fucking held your hands.<br />
<br />
<br />
The fool, who thought her feelings mattered.<br />
Who explained the pain that was prolonged in her heart,<br />
Who was brushed off simply like dust from our past.<br />
<br />
Yeah, when I was hurled online.<br />
It was my fault for following.<br />
<br />
When I hurled her online.<br />
It was my fault for being childish.<br />
<br />
Little did you realised that all this time, the fool was me who was never once sheltered for being foolish.<br />
<br />
Wildest WolfUnknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-86110732580060798642015-12-04T11:46:00.001-08:002015-12-04T11:46:12.679-08:00Okay.<div style="text-align: center;">
I swear to myself, I'll be fine.</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
Days been slowing down lately,</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
I await for my dear Moon calling.</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
Behind the clouds or the heavy rain pours,</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
With a slow gentle love song drowning my sore.</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
Rolled a couple blunts and make it lit,</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
Crush a couple tears and make me bleed.</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
This pain that i feel everyday,</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
I'll make you taste in every agonising way.</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
A dying body,</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
A faded heart.</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
You killed me in one day,</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
My soul is now apart.</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
Truth is- I never wanted you to go.</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
Or ever wanted you to leave.</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
But today I'm glad I did,</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
Because your love always made me bleed.</div>
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The Irony of life always sets me apart.</div>
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To claim that you love me but stabbed right in my heart.</div>
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Ugly truths with a pretty face,</div>
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Was cheated by Faith while I was in your Embrace.</div>
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This mixture of anger and hurt,</div>
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I can't fucking comprehend.</div>
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But its alright, you won't bother,</div>
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With another on your bed.</div>
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Bed partners are easily replaced,</div>
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But real partners don't.</div>
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Guess I saw where I stand,</div>
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Just another in your woe.</div>
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I'm just another girl, </div>
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Who showed you her flaws.</div>
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Who believed in fairytales,</div>
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And love behind closed doors.</div>
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I'm not okay,</div>
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In fact I never was.</div>
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But don't worry thats alright,</div>
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I'm not okay but I'll be fine.</div>
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Wildest Wolf</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-1597749278293688282015-12-02T10:16:00.004-08:002015-12-02T10:16:53.334-08:00The biggest culprit.I heard the words drifting to my ears, I denied to my heart for the lies I was feeding to.<br />
"No don't listen Luna, Its gonna hurt."<br />
The words don't often lie and the truth is always the main course in Hell kitchen.<br />
"Don't look please, someone, anyone, tell me this isn't true."<br />
...Wake me up from this dead dream.<br />
<br />
Pain was long faded in my ghoul as the evil took over me. This time however, I met Satan himself.<br />
<br />
The ripping sound of a tearing heart is slowly, slowly breaking up inside me. I felt it - Hard.<br />
This menacing pain wouldn't go, it kept draining my soul away and soon taking over me.<br />
<br />
"I really don't need to feel this pain, please I want to go."<br />
<br />
He reached out his hands to me, pulling me to his embrace.<br />
"Here my little one, you have suffered enough. I'll bring you to the other side. A place where feelings were not born and pain were never felt."<br />
<br />
As I dragged my foot to the other world, I kept my conscious clear and my took a last breathe.<br />
"This would be the last for me, put everything down and leave."<br />
I let go of the pain that I was holding on for so long and looked at my bloody hands.<br />
All this time I have been trying to give up yet I was still carrying all the memories in my hand around me. What was I thinking?<br />
<br />
Why do you have to do this to me? Why am I feeling this pain? Whose fault is it, yours or mine?<br />
All these questions left unanswered, untold.<br />
<br />
Despite knowing the fact everything was going to hurt, I continued being exposed to the things that kill me and suffered the pain again and again. why am I so foolish?<br />
I can't help but want to find out the truth, I can't help but shed the bit of love that was always meant for you, Stop it Luna - Stop.<br />
<br />
They say "Curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought it back" I was constantly satisfied with the tormented feeling, I can't help but want to run another slice to my heart to feel the bleed.<br />
It hurts so <i>fucking </i>bad, but I love it.<br />
<br />
I left, to a dark place i feed my soul to. Roaming in the dark with no soul, realised I am surrounded by heartless ghouls. The same pain, same feeling, everyone knew.<br />
<br />
Leaving a soft trail of blood behind before it finally fades into dust.<br />
You were the biggest culprit who tore me apart.<br />
<br />
Wildest Wolf<br />
<br />
<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-62328675543259424592015-11-28T11:50:00.003-08:002015-11-28T12:08:20.047-08:00The only one.1<br />
Right from the start, she knew I was different.<br />
In her cradle, I was blessed in Endless affection.<br />
With pain in her heart she fought for my survival,<br />
The only person whose love could be so vital.<br />
<br />
3<br />
In winter she brought me bitter and loneliness,<br />
Nothing but mirrors in my memory and her sleeping silhouette.<br />
Groomed my imagination with never existing friends,<br />
Gave me a life that I probably resent.<br />
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5<br />
Filling me with colours and happiness again,<br />
With daddy we went to a home place.<br />
And even I could remember every event,<br />
Bring me back to the days in Japan.<br />
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7<br />
The next chapter in life began,<br />
You walked me down every steps.<br />
These endless nights where I spent with you,<br />
Never wished to end it at two.<br />
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9<br />
My lil sis entered my life.<br />
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13<br />
Hell begin, where should I start?<br />
This relationship have driven us apart.<br />
All my regrets for my foolish acts,<br />
Craziness in life have such an irony on hand.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
Stay, I need you,<br />
9 years of us is not enough.<br />
Don't leave me please,<br />
<u>Adding your love to my wish list.</u><br />
<br />
Never meant to make you cry,<br />
Hated myself for coming to your life.<br />
Tell me this isn't happening,<br />
Why is life being so fucking mean.<br />
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17<br />
Hey, how are you?<br />
I couldn't even remember when we last had dinner.<br />
My presence is slowly fading,<br />
Missing you is more than just a feeling.<br />
<br />
"Come home, Where are you?"<br />
Are my favourite texts.<br />
A reminder that i still matter,<br />
Even when theres a Abuser.<br />
<br />
I miss you dearly,<br />
As I stared out the frosted windows.<br />
In a cold room with no love,<br />
Running stupid questions of my birth.<br />
<br />
Mummy,<br />
<br />
I know that I'm probably not the best daughter in the world. I understand that Ive been drifting from this family and we behave worse than strangers do in the streets. Words can't describe how much I missed you guys in my life. The sorrow, the cries and the aches - I tell myself it'll be over soon but I know, it never will. I know you check me up daily to ensure my safety, but truly I just wish to end everything now. This complicated life I've been living is a torturous game to the mind. <strike>I'm so done.</strike> Its your birthday today and I've asked your for a simple dinner, sadly you reject me away. Why?<br />
This family feels like an empty shell, and I can't help but run away from this place.<br />
<br />
I don't want to see you happy with sis and daddy, I don't want to see that you're fine without me. Come back, Im here. Still.<br />
<br />
<u>Bring me back the nine years we had, I promise I'll make it better.</u><br />
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My days are over, To you I'm gone with the wind.<br />
Happy Birthday Mother,<br />
I missed you.<br />
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<br />
Wildest Wolf<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-72181413983487559022015-11-16T12:05:00.001-08:002015-11-16T12:05:15.881-08:00HushHush. Don't speak.<div>This post is gonna make me bleed.</div><div><br></div><div>This pain on my aching beat,</div><div>Running blood on my top ribs.</div><div><br></div><div>Hush. Settle down.</div><div>Don't worry about life- just calm down.</div><div><br></div><div>Even the lost found light in the dull,</div><div>Wouldn't you live life without a dwell?</div><div><br></div><div>Hush. Don't cry.</div><div>This feeling that I get I don't know why.</div><div><br></div><div>This misery lingering over my soul.</div><div>A tormented life lurking around in the cold.</div><div><br></div><div>Hush. Take a shot.</div><div>Let liquor bring you away from your thoughts</div><div><br></div><div>The burning Crimson will befall,</div><div>This pain you felt will be dissolve.</div><div><br></div><div>Hush. Stay happy.</div><div>Cut a line and put stitches over me.</div><div><br></div><div>This plastic happiness we were told to portray.</div><div>Losing faith in humanity once again.</div><div><br></div><div>Hush. I love you.</div><div>What a common lie coming from you.</div><div><br></div><div>Why are we killing each other</div><div>Are you a lover or a serial killer</div><div><br></div><div>Hush. The moon.</div><div>Alone in the dark, faded in the sky.</div><div><br></div><div>Seek for the moon when you lost your sight.</div><div>I'll bring you home with all my light.</div><div>-Hush</div><div><br></div><div>Wildest Wolf</div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-91691299338727493172015-10-18T13:56:00.001-07:002015-10-18T13:56:06.987-07:00HellI pushed my happiness aside, <div>Trading for the dream I was chasing for.</div><div>I know I'm about to regret,</div><div>But isn't this what life is for?</div><div><br></div><div>They told you to be happy , </div><div>They warned me to be kind.</div><div>Yet they were brutal to me,</div><div>And I was forced to say "I'm fine"</div><div><br></div><div>No gods , nor humans ,</div><div>Weigh higher than the rest.</div><div>No scale of humanity,</div><div>To measure our death.</div><div><br></div><div>Born to die, came to hurt.</div><div>Yet no one taught us- the meaning of love.</div><div><br></div><div>Hurt is the mental torture,</div><div>Pain is the physical distress.</div><div>I would go distance for you, </div><div>But did you just want me undress?</div><div><br></div><div>Oh lord , fuck it.</div><div>Who needs faith.</div><div>I'll walk to hell,</div><div>With your cross engraved.</div><div><br></div><div>Sexual desires drive human insane, Sexual <span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">disease kills human brain.</span></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Would you fuck tonight,</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Or make love in a fight.</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><br></font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Crazily fighting to be happy.</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Sex , love , and lots of money.</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">But if you truly learn the meaning of life, </font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">This three factor is sinfully designed.</font></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">-humanity irony </span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-44261921411368972702015-10-12T12:32:00.001-07:002015-10-12T12:35:34.210-07:00MadnessLike a wind , that kiss upon my cheeks.<div>Or the hovering shadow that follow in the mist.</div><div>Strange thing occurs in the corner of life.</div><div>Lingering in my head , contemplating to find.</div><div><br></div><div>Like a whirling pool , swoop up in my head.</div><div>Or the mistakes that I frown on fate.</div><div>These incidents happen not only for a reason.</div><div>But a sign that says "you're indecent"</div><div><br></div><div>Done , crushed , buried alive.</div><div>Are the three simple words I can best describe.</div><div>Of how my days passed like a wind.</div><div>Before I finally give up- being me.</div><div><br></div><div>Cold hard truths are painful to cry.</div><div>Burning skins seem to wrap just fine.</div><div>A solitude wolf running in the dark.</div><div>Is way better then always getting fucked.</div><div><br></div><div>Searching for my ghoul in the pathetic flame.</div><div>Guided by satan for the sinner's pace.</div><div><br></div><div>I'm not always sad , as I'm a no man tear.</div><div>But when it hits me , I'll probably fear.</div><div>These words that I just can't puzzle into pieces.</div><div>Are the perfect answer to my inevitable madness.</div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">-Madness</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><br></font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Wildest Wolf</font></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-59250318994468630462015-10-07T08:54:00.001-07:002015-10-07T08:56:32.595-07:00Part of the planDark clouds hovering over me<div>I knew this day would come</div><div>I pictured everything in the scene</div><div>And wait for it become</div><div><br></div><div>I beg the lord to make it fast</div><div>I pray satan would make me last</div><div>To hold my breathe as pain passed </div><div>Let the words break the crust</div><div><br></div><div>It doesn't matter how the old ones say</div><div>Or the lover hate if one may</div><div>Keep it up and stay insane</div><div>For christ in lord should be my vane</div><div><br></div><div>The cries should not be heard</div><div>This pain is not deserved</div><div>If you want to succed you gotta taste the blood</div><div>And bow to Satan while rotting to rut </div><div><br></div><div>This lonely road that I shall take</div><div>Is blinded by a thousand mistake</div><div><br></div><div>For regrets is time I wouldn't spend</div><div>Only sins that I fail to repent </div><div><br></div><div>-silent</div><div><br></div><div>Wildest Wolf</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-26177935595647134102015-10-02T12:53:00.001-07:002015-10-02T12:53:58.530-07:00LevelHey loves<div><br></div><div>Lately I've been feeling very compromised as a teenager. I looked around and started realising that I've been slowly lowering myself in order to satisfy others.</div><div><br></div><div>I've been looking at others faces , their comments - and held it dearly to my heart. I can't lie that feelings hurt and it was to a point that is unbearable for an individual to handle. </div><div><br></div><div>I started questioning myself in the break of dawn and finally I concluded </div><div><br></div><div><i>I do not need to live for the sake of others and tolerate their bullshits everyday </i></div><div><i><br></i></div><div>Hence to all you fellow victims out there: </div><div><br></div><div><b>Fuck them. </b></div><div><b>We don't need no bitches in our lives.</b></div><div><b><br></b></div><div>As humans we were born to live a life,</div><div>A life that's full of good and kind.</div><div>But the serpent sin slowly awaits,</div><div>To torment a soul till an awful state.</div><div><br></div><div>We were pushed like objects with no man feelings,</div><div>Maybe cries that only a soul could fill in.</div><div>This mental pain is a serial killers wife,</div><div>To plunge one into the judgemental knive.</div><div><br></div><div>Who said that we were born to hurt ?</div><div>Who allowed my soul to crumble in words.</div><div><br></div><div>This pain has changed a soul to hate,</div><div>This man has learned to <i style="font-weight: bold;">fuck</i> with fate.</div><div><br></div><div>Put all your misery days to end, </div><div>We stand against the tormented pain.</div><div>As humans we were born to live a life,</div><div>To live and fight while our faith arise.</div><div><br></div><div>-stand</div><div><br></div><div>Wildest Wolf</div><div><b><br></b></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-34901816864918905222015-09-17T14:42:00.000-07:002015-09-17T14:42:05.746-07:00what...Roaming around in the heart of my world,<br />
I got lost with the berries i found.<br />
With greed filling every bit of my mind.<br />
Endless sins dripping on the ground.<br />
<br />
Soulless humans walking,<br />
Crazy lovers hurting.<br />
Lonely souls passing,<br />
Killers are seeking.<br />
<br />
I saw a reflection of mine,<br />
I stared and it wasn't from my soul.<br />
It was just another girl,<br />
With a heavy cloud hovering her ghoul.<br />
<br />
She was night black,<br />
I am pure white.<br />
She was mute,<br />
Yet I was a backbite.<br />
<br />
We talked, next to each other.<br />
As if the universe stopped.<br />
With writings that became spoken words,<br />
And her singing a sad song.<br />
<br />
I saw her cuts,<br />
Scars deep in her wrist.<br />
I showed her my clean arms and said,<br />
"There's no need to be brutal with the fist"<br />
<br />
These pain will leave,<br />
This life will change.<br />
I have walked from the dark,<br />
You will put down your blades.<br />
<br />
She smiled and turn, leaving a sad tear behind.<br />
I saw her leaving with a strange uneasy mind.<br />
I want to pull her back, and guide her back to light.<br />
But I finally realise , its time for her to find.<br />
<br />
Roaming around in the heart of my world,<br />
I got lost with the berries i found.<br />
With greed filling every bit of my mind.<br />
Endless sins dripping on the ground.<br />
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<br /></div>
<div>
I walked back with a grip on the heart,</div>
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And I found an answer to every single part.</div>
To walked towards the light and find my path,<br />
She was a ghost who had walked past my heart.<br />
<br />
-Crazy Incident.<br />
<br />
Wildest Wolf<br />
<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-17769388148860571322015-09-09T14:41:00.000-07:002015-09-09T14:45:53.399-07:00Helliday<h2 style="text-align: center;">
<u><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Helliday</span></u></h2>
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The play of words for both Holiday and Hell to be mixed together.</span></h4>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">
Commonly used for describing a Holiday period that has given an individual a whole ride of <i>Hell.</i></span></h4>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">-Source relied from the limited knowledge in Luna's sick-retarded brain</span></div>
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Alright lets go...</div>
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Exam has ended and it bought a triumph of victory into my mind. Fuck yes I'm going to finally take a nice long ass break and be away from bullshits- Not.</div>
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Guess what ? Satan Taekwando have decided to step into my life</div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">FUCK</span></div>
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OHWELL CAN'T BE HELPED. Besides my schedule for September is crazy like literally I think need to head down to the nearest 7-11 and grab 5 cartons of Redbull. Aint kidding.</div>
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Will be travelling a lot this month with Malaysia followed by Batam and ending with Australia Fuck yes. But as much as I'm excited, the shiftiness that I have experienced lately is hell.</div>
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Problems after Problems just start piling up as if rubbish is not the only pollution on earth.</div>
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The stress and anxiety inside me feels as if I'm struggling for exam wait.. DIDNT MY PAPERS JUST ENDED?! Oh lord.</div>
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I . DECLARE . I . NEED . AND . WANT . A . BREAK .</div>
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<u><span style="font-size: x-large;">PLAN:</span></u></div>
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This recipe will teach you human beings how to take a <i>fucking</i> break with only simple ingredients that you already most probably have within your reach, and clear instructions that even an idiot can understand.</div>
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<u><span style="font-size: large;">Ingredients:</span></u></div>
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None.</div>
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<u><span style="font-size: large;">Instructions:</span></u></div>
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Get the fuck off planet Earth.</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">.....FEEL ME?</span></div>
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Life has been so crazy and even if you want a break, it is literally impossible because our world is just a chaotic human living adaptable dying but still orbiting planet. </div>
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This is just a silly, indirect, informal, disrespectful blogpost because Im scandalous like that /Haha/</div>
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With that thanks for reading this crap</div>
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love you,</div>
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Wildest Wolf</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-61084029622831907662015-08-20T11:02:00.001-07:002015-08-20T11:07:02.249-07:00Dear future self,Dear future self,<br />
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10 years down the road, I wish this little blog will be happier...<br />
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I wish you will come back and look at the crazy things that had happened in your life, which has made you successful today (maybe)<br />
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I wish that you were able to drift soundly to sleep without occurring nightmares in your head.<br />
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I wish the people that are with you now are the ones who said they will stand by you, 10 years ago.<br />
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I wish that you would forget every single mistake you made in life and stop blaming yourself.<br />
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I wish that no matter how much you regret, you can only continue to move forward in life and let it go.<br />
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I wish you would remember that mistake is inevitable but learning from it is exceptional.<br />
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I wish your eyes are no longer looking at the ugly corners of this world.<br />
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I wish that your inner demons left you.<br />
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I wish that people will truly understand that even if your blog is sad, you aren't necessary unhappy with yourself but simply t<u>he truth of being 2 soul in a vessel </u><br />
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Sometimes people come up to me, or even email me about how sad my blogpost are and how they wished they can be here for me ..<br />
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But honestly,<br />
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<i>I didn't need anyone.</i><br />
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The very reason why I started blogging was because I am afraid of voicing out my thoughts.<br />
I portray a happy self in this world but deep down I am a complete different soul.<br />
Don't get me wrong though, Its fine. I just detest showing my vulnerable self to others thats all.<br />
When people offer me to open up to them, I simply reject because I am afraid that they will judge me on my thoughts.<br />
To me the best medication for my escape is writing and this little place here is my secret hideout.<br />
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Dear future self,<br />
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I wish that you are a truly happy person.<br />
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Wildest WolfUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2356513221158609722.post-32019585953295527412015-08-13T13:32:00.001-07:002015-08-13T13:36:33.330-07:00Broke downDay 6 of holding up my tears.<div><br></div><div>Heard a sad song , and my mind went blank. </div><div><br></div><div>"早知道是这样 像梦一场 </div><div>我又何必把泪都锁在自己的眼眶<span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);">"</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);">-If only I knew that we would end up this way ; just like a dream.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);">I would not have lock my tears in my eyes- </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);">Trembling hearts and burning tears.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);">Are far worse than the demons I fear.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);">Wildest wolf </span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0